Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Jan 1st 2009 it begins

Well I went and got all my supplements today, that we will be starting tomorrow. I will take about 6 a day and Cecil will take 2. These just get our bodies as healthy as possible. Some are what my doctor wants me to take and 2 others are organic, natural things I have done tons of research on, that women swear by. We will see. Royal Jelly is the big one that women swear by, it is acutal bee pollen. It is supposed to help with everything fertility wise, because a female bee lays more eggs then any other thing in the world. The research and testing on it have been profound. We will take these for about 3 months to get the full affect. In that time I will stay on birth control, to clear my ovarion cysts. I also have my first accupunture appt a the end of the month, a chiro appt on friday, and fertility massage appt in January. My diet and excerise program starts tomorrow as well. Right now we are looking at March/April IVF date. We are looking at a total cost of $16,000, I know that is a big number, but this time we do have a little help from insruance as in the last time we did it we paid it all out of pocket, so we are thankful for our insurance. Cecil and I will be heading to the Flordia Keys on January 12th for a week. We decided we needed a week of relaxtion with our best friends before the craziness starts. I will update when I return home on how the supplements are going! Hope everyones 2009 will be as good as ours! Kari and Cecil

Thursday, December 25, 2008

This is a perfect embryo. This is what the first picture of our baby will look like, isnt that cool we get to see our baby from the very start of its life!!!

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Christmas 2008

Well Im sitting her on Christmas Eve and Im sad. I really thought we would have a family for this Christmas. I always told myself I'd be pregnant by 25, and if I wasnt thats when I could get scared about it. That was always my scary number, well I hit and no baby. If IVF would have worked the first time, we would have a 2 year old to celebrate Christmas with. Its just so hard and I know I am emotional right now because this new birth control is messing with me and making me sick. Hopfully next year I will be plump and round with a baby! Heres praying, because I dont know if I can do another Christmas this way.

Monday, December 22, 2008

And it starts......

Today I started Birthcontrol, that is the first step in the IVF process. I will take it for 2 months to get rid of my ovarion cysts. Kindof ironic Im taking birth control to start trying to have a baby!

I also know there are some of you who will read this and have no idea what the IVF process is. I mean I had no clue until I went thur it.

IVF in non medical terms is, putting an egg and sperm together from the mother and father and letting it grow into an embryo for ethier 3 or 5 days, and then putting those embryos back into the mother, that is called the "transfer"

The process starts by me taking tons of medicine, oral and shots, to produce tons of eggs, women typically only harvest a few eggs a month, with the meds I will harvest at least 20 eggs. During this time I am so swollen from all the eggs, that I already look pregant. And yes last time I did this, I did have people ask if I was expecting, so thats super hard. Well after you make all these eggs, you have to go to the Doctor everyday to measure them, once most of the eggs are what they call "mature" you head to the doctor the next day for what is called the retriveal. You get sedated and they go in and remove all the eggs they can find. Then they are putting into a petri dish with sperm and left alone for 3 to 5 days to become embryos. The embryos are graded and they will only put back 2-3 of the best graded embryos. They rest, if there is more, can be frozen for later use.

After the 3 to 5 days, the mother goes back and does the "transfer" which means they put the 2-3 best embryos back into the woman. Then is the 2 week wait, which is the longest 2 weeks ever. After 2 weeks you go in for bloodwork to see if you are pregnant or not.

Now our first IVF experience was in January of 2007. In the egg retrieval the doctor only retrieved 7 eggs, which is not good for my young age. We had 2 pretty good quaility embryos to put back on transfer day. We had none to freeze which was a bummer. The 2 week wait came and went and then we recieved the bad news on a Saturday in early Febuary 2007. I just cried in Cecils arms for hours that day. It was the most devestated I have ever felt in my life. Not only did we spend our life savings, we had NOTHING to show for it.

This time I am conquering this with a whole new attitude and plan. Like I said I will be changing my diet to 90% organic and no meat or dairy. I will be yoga, fertility massage, accupunture, and meditation. I also have become a lot more faithful since the last time. Now there are many times I have been pissed off at God. Expecially when I see young moms who have there babies and leave them in the bathroom trashcan to die, or the women who have 13 babies from 13 different dads. Its very hard, but I know God is going to give us the baby or babies we are supposed to have. I have complete faith.

Im sure most of you are wondering, where is Cecil in all of this, what does he think, what does he feel. The people that know Cecil know that knows he is not very open with feelings. He has been my rock. There has been many of times when he has picked me up off the bathroom floor, after another negative pregnany test and just held me. He tries to take all the pain away, and I know he struggles not knowing what to say sometimes, but he has been perfect so far. I couldnt imagine going thur this without him. He does all of my shots and medicine. This had made me fall more in love with him, then I even thought was possible. Together we will make it thru this journey.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Our First Blog

Welcome to our blog, we hope everyone can follow along in our journey with us. Any thoughts and prayers are appreciated very much. Without God Cecil and I would have never made it this far, it is such a draining task. Thankfully it has made our marriage stronger, but sadly that doesnt happen with all couples struggling with infertility. It is in the top 5 reasons for divorce.

Currently it is 4 days before Christmas and I will be really starting this blog at the start of the year.

We will be doing "conventional" fertility treatments and also inconventional ways such as yoga, massage, diet, accupunture. I am becoming very passionate about the things that go into my body and my environment and we live a pretty GREEN environment.