Christmas 2008

Well Im sitting her on Christmas Eve and Im sad. I really thought we would have a family for this Christmas. I always told myself I'd be pregnant by 25, and if I wasnt thats when I could get scared about it. That was always my scary number, well I hit and no baby. If IVF would have worked the first time, we would have a 2 year old to celebrate Christmas with. Its just so hard and I know I am emotional right now because this new birth control is messing with me and making me sick. Hopfully next year I will be plump and round with a baby! Heres praying, because I dont know if I can do another Christmas this way.